I've found myself immersing myself in grand plans recently. There is so much that I thought I wanted to do. But that is not what I really want. I need to learn to build myself up again, to eat properly and go for a run and feed my mind with positive thoughts and good books. But above all else, I need to live lightly. Winning awards and doing grand things, that is business for other people, or a future me in a future time. 

I have decided that courage is a value I hold close to me. So now I have to be true to myself by acknowledging that most of the things I've held close to me so far, don't really matter to me. 

On that note, I would just like to say that I will stop writing on this public space indefinitely. I must write for myself first. Many people have told me how they love reading what I write. I think it's because I say they think but don't say out loud, for reasons I will not attempt to understand. I think this is a coming out of sorts, but I don't want to invite everyone to be a witness at the ceremony, I hope you will understand.

I hope.