Alisa Maya
19
Student
Aspiring writer

I'm Alisa Maya and I hope to be a published writer someday. For now I try to read and write as much as I can between school and spending time with family and friends. I started this site because I have a lot to say about my experiences and those of the people I know. If you have something you'd like to say to me, drop me an email at alisamayar@gmail.com.

When we can see what we want for what it is,

Monday, September 29, 2014 • 8:07 PM

maybe we have made the first step towards attaining it. 

Today was a rough day. I sometimes wonder if my ambitions are trapping me or pushing me forward. 

Firstly, I want to thank everyone who reads and comments on and shares my blog posts. Recently, many people have come up to me or messaged me to tell me that they like reading my blog posts and look forward to them. A  dear friend even told me that she and a few other friends were inspired by my blog to start their own blog. I don't write this for vanity's sake, but I just want to say I am happy if I have started conversations about something or made someone think about something differently about an issue than to me I have succeeded. If nothing else, I want to be known as someone who prompted people to think. To be very honest I am  disillusioned by the state of writing I read from some people my age. Maybe the interests of many people of my generation differ from mine. I do not pretend to think I am better than the people I have just referred to, entertaining such thoughts is ultimately a pointless endeavour.  But I remain hopeful that there are many people who truly want to have an intelligent, funny discussion about anything at all. Sometimes I ask myself, who I, a lowly student am to feel disillusioned by the writing of others. But then again, who am I not to be. I am too often guilty of discrediting the "every-man's" opinion and I am trying to be more conscious of this bad habit. 

There are a 3 things that I really, really want to work on and see succeed. But I thought about everything that needs to be done before that can happen and I feel very daunted. 

But I think deep down I still believe that I can make an impact and be "someone" if I may use the expression so loosely.

Today I realised I need to put my head down and work on the things I want to achieve. Most importably though I think I need to block out all the distractions I find upsetting about the way other people have achieved "success" and recognition, if I can even call it that. I think I always want to rationalise others' actions and be everybody's hero by saving them from the stupid things that day do. But maybe I just need to be a  hero in my own right, or maybe I should just be me. 

"But the real things have not changed. It is still important to be truthful and loyal; to do the best you can; to make the most of your talents; to be happy with the simple things in life; and to believe deep down that you will ultimately triumph if you try hard enough to prove your worth."- Adeline Yen Mah

There are so many reasons why I love this quote, but that's another post for another day. I try to remind myself of the sentiments behind this quote daily though.

In the mean time, I will be doing my best to stay positive. And when I fail at that ( and I  WILL fail at keeping a positive outlook sometimes, I will be thankful that I have the chance to try again the next day.)

People always say the same thing to me:  "Keep writing."

I hope we will all start or keep writing.

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